i feel very weird... no one's ever gonna believe this...

i just did something that is so not like me. trust me, it's not in my character to do these kinds of things. never in a million years would i have expected myself to do this.

and that's why i feel so weird.

i had dinner with Nayie, Trency, Nana, and Sansan in Wok Dis Way.

during the walk home, we ran into a familiar street kid - si Precious, the little girl who doesn't have a left eye.

it was raining and she was kinda wet. (she had an umbrella but i think it wasn't keeping her dry enough.) she asked us for spare change. and this time around, i really had none in my pocket. and upon seeing the look of disappointment on her face, i felt sorry for her.

on the way home, Nayie was telling me that according to BJ and Tin, the other street kids bully her and make fun of her because of her condition. when i heard that, i felt even more sorry for her. and i felt so helpless because i couldn't do anything to help her.

so when i got home, i felt this sudden impulse... i dropped off my stuff in my apartment, grabbed an umbrella and quickly headed down to 7-11. i bought a Cornsilog Rice Meal and went back to the Starbucks/Jollibee area to look for her. i finally found her in the Starbucks parking lot, playing with her umbrella, and it seemed that she still had no luck.

so i went up to her holding the 7-11 plastic bag and said "ayun, kanina pa kita hinahanap. o eto, para sayo." and i handed her the bag. at first, medyo nahihiya pa siya when she got the bag.

but then Precious flashed a big smile and said "salamat po kuya!" and started to skip towards the underpass.

as she turned her back, i told her "mainit pa yan, a." then she faced me and said "opo kuya!"

then as i was walking back to Burgundy, i turned around to check on her. she was sitting beside an old man (who i assume is her dad) and she was starting to open the box and unwrap the utensils. she seemed excited and happy.

it felt good seeing her happy.

and until now, i still have absolutely no idea why i did it. because it was raining? because i had cash to spare? because i had nothing better to do? because she seemed hungry? it all doesn't make sense. but i feel good that i went out and did it, even without a definite reason. i feel even better that a simple gesture was able to make a little girl very happy.

my friends are not gonna believe that i actually did this. like what i said earlier, this is very very very very very un-Jake! (i'm usually 1276.38% more self-centered. haha.)

i am so sharing this with my theo teacher during my orals on thursday. (sipsip!) hahahahahahahahaha.